Wednesday, May 03, 2006
03may
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arina isnt normally a very emo person]
on this very date, exactly three years ago. i was damn fucked up.really, if there was ever a worse day of my life. it would be that very day. i never hated the world so much until that day came. its only then that i realised what people meant by the hurt you feel when you lose a loved one. nothing could possibly suck even more. its like, you dont know how to imagine what life would be like without that one person. and you dont know if you could really live. ive never ever felt one emotion worse than what i felt.
but that was three years ago. now, i've learnt to accept fates and live. of course, i think about it very often. i wouldnt deny that there have been times i'd wish she just come back. but i know it'd never happen. and what's best is just to live on...even if at that very moment, you find no meaning in life. i tell that to myself. because i believe i would eventually find meaning.
to everyone who's helped me through this ordeal. i love you guys so very much! (: really.
and to mama. live hasnt been the greatest thing since you were gone. but i guess its meantto be like that. i've never loved or missed anyone more than you. thank you much for bringing me up the way i am. noone could have done it any better. i love you.
@7:49 PM
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